Wednesday, June 30, 2010

LACMA and Female

Yesterday I went to LACMA. I haven't been since the first summer I was here. Mostly because I have been swamped with school. Today I had a meeting there to meet with Jules Rochielle about possibly being involved with her project, Portable Cities. Which I am honored she wants my input and involvement. Here is a link to her awesome project

I went early to check out the art, Beuys and Baldessari have exhibits up. And what a combo! Beuys is very hard to exhibit because his work was performace, design, and art in the name of a political agenda. But more importantly I think was his belief in mystery. That you shouldn't explain away the meaning of your art or the passion in your art. But it leaves the objects a bit lifeless in the gallery. My favorite part of that exhibit was the animal prints. Images of animals that are just scratches of images are so mysterious and beautiful.

BALDESSARI what a man! everything blends together spirit, image, design, deliberation, and performance. This man really is quite an artist. There is spirit in composition. God has a nose. letting an image breath. letting an image float. composition is a language that creates a feeling.
It is all in the overlap for JB. He has these paintings that are images from photos or film with paintings and double exposure....that is where we live in reality and that is where art lies. Art lies in the overlap...of image and composition....JB lets you create reality through setting up a structure that breaths. The man plays with simple things but in building on those simple things creates quite a story. Hope is a color and a form on top of a field of images....brillant.

as you can see i enjoyed what I saw because it made me think about how distance and overlap the impersonal can become personal and how the personal can be mundane....our brain creates images...our culture creates images (cinema-photo) and text creates images...all of these things meld together into something more...something with flesh.

so this brings me to my own work which was on Venice Beach today. For thirty minutes I meditated on my femaleness. I meditated. I embodied. I was flesh with the thoughts the structures of female. This idea was inspired by Adam Overton when I had explored speaking to art works through a feminine gaze....but men are female too! He reminded me of this. The experience personally was gratifiying and I learned a lot about receiving. How male and female are so intertwined every wave contains both. But the FEELINGS of this were rather magical. As I sat there letting life in and not judging, that THAT is something I want to do every moment of my life. And I left the beach more ready to receive life. I thought of Baldesarri as i sat there and i wondered what he would think of this work. At first I thought man he would hate it...there is no image to overlap to make reality POP. And then I realized he would love sure as hell wasn't boring ;) and that in going to FAR into the cinema image in our everyday life this act of getting make to reality is an act of consciuos overlapping!!!!! woo!
Here is the link to the awesome series I am doing this work through
Lets just say there was a lot of good thoughts and feelings that happened for yesterday Jules and I's meeting was very fruitful! and i am excited to work with people and movement within Jules' residency at LACE! So excited about art! yes!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, June 28, 2010

Past and Present

So here I am days away from my new job! I must admit I nervous. Something I won't be showing on the first day of work. :) I have been procrastinating about pulling out the paperwork I have to fill out.
Today was an easy in which I slept through my scheduled chat with my friend Russell in England because I forgot while really enjoying a few more hours of sleep. Something I just couldn't seem to get the past few weeks.

I am organizing my room as I organize my life. I have bought a few new dresses, shirts, and pants so I can look and feel professional. I got a dresser today after two years of letting my clothes rule my room. :) I got some mirrors from the studio and rearranged my room.

And my biggest project is creating a book of all the momentos I have kept the past two years. What is amazing feels like mementos from about 5 years...there are all these amazing things and people that were CRAMMED into two years....and the thing is these are just the mementos and moments I chose to keep and organize. There were so many more that were thrown away....either in good riddance or just that everyday things seem less important when collecting objects. We want to tell stories with objects...not always mundane moments.
So I photographed a beautiful moment from today. This bowl of cherries....what a bowl of cherries, eh? I think of my Dad when I see cherries cause he likes them so much. I got TWO pounds of cherries for $9 at the farmers market. The red ones are earthier and more full bodied, whereas the yellow/red ones are sort of tart and light. I know he would be a bit envious of all those cherries. :)

Had a great tea time chat with Michele J. I hope to someday be as grounded as she. I also hope to someday teach and facilitate like she does in some capacity. We both agree my new job is going to be a GREAT opportunity for me to learn and to see what my capabilities and interest lie within curation.

Yup getting nervous and EXCITED for my new job!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Love Inspiration

Love Poem #171 by Athena Kildegaard

"According to Montaigne our minds
do nothing but “ferret and quest”

sniff out
dig up
seek, as Odysseus

on the run from tragedy
to romance, evading
temptation and brutality,
succumbing too—

what would ferreting and questing be
without giving in
without overpowering

but finally, after all that,
sweaty and famished,
falling into open arms."

check out this link of me being a Vision Card Cover Girl

Saturday, June 26, 2010


Sometimes I think that I will forever live in LA. The sun streams down on to the green streets of Mar Vista as I walk to my friends garage sale....and I think about how every day is just as lovely as the next. That there are creative people all around. That I am dong what I want to do. But mostly there is something so satisfying about always being satisfied by the world around you. The gorgeous plants, flowers, and trees. But more then the visual. There is this feeling that comes over me more and more....this unexplainable feeling of knowing I am not going to leave....this feeling of complete. The feeling of complete that is at once being trapped and at once being free. Then I can't hear my mother on my cell phone cause the traffic on Venice Blvd. is so loud...and it smells like exhaust. I get jolted out of my revelry. But lately that revelry happens more and more. I'm getting sucked in. But I also miss the hardship of cold. Of needing wool socks. Survival is so real when it is 5 degrees out. You see the infrastructure of civilization. Of knowing that the world is NOT just a playground for all of us adults playing big kids. In California it feels like all you need is a tarp, some food, a swimsuit, and a sweater with you and you could live comfortably. It is a quirky place....(see pic of AA market that sells booze)
Last night I had the GREATEST time! But I have no pics to go with this story. I went dancing! At my friend Ofunne's bday party! What a blast! danced to African, disco, hip hop, etc....magical! magical night! new friends....old and a tiny dance floor....

I have to admit it is a lot of fun! Today I went to my friend Lara's garage sale that was at Bod and Theresa's house...see pics of the great set up of watching the World Cup OUTSIDE! it was grand to sit outside after buying an amazing pair of boots to wear to work and some clothes for my new job (I spent $23). I was cheering for Ghana against the USA....cause I am a traitor like that...but mostly cause I know what a win for Ghana would be to the people of Ghana. Ghana has nothing. This win would be an eruption of joy for Ghana. Well I should say I am SURE it was....but you won't find it blasted all over the internet. You won't see commercials about it seconds after the win, because Ghana isn't a world power. Ghana is a poor country with a big heart. I think the team showed that today. (I am an American I mourn our loss but I think it is great we got out of group play and into the real tourney! we are growing as a team). Futbal is HUGE in Ghana. Go Ghana!

What I thought about today was perspective. The perspective that taking different buses give me. If I can get to the same neighborhood on different buses, visually and physically it can be a very different experience. I enjoy walking down the same street twice in random neighborhoods. Try to remember why I was there. how it looked then. And how does it look differently. AND realize how neighborhoods can look very similar. This all seems rather simplistic but to experience perspective. The way a road looks from one end to another. How you can walk back the way you came and it is completely different in a way. That is cool. There was a teddy bear stuck in a tree on my street and days would go by before I remembered it was there. And then one day it was gone. looking is about attention and it doesn't get old.I think this perspective also speaks to relationships.... As I try to receive love in a healthier way, I see those around me differently.

I ended my adventuring at the Susan Vielmetter Gallery. After all this introspection thinking about and learning about immigration policies of america and the fight against them was harsh. But was very lucky to hear Enrique Morones of Border Angels and Ernesto Yerena speak. and Felicia Montes spoken word (view above pic). I am just trying to digest what I learned. Andrea Bowers work is amazing....with thousands of names of the dead who died trying to cross in America since the wall went up in graphite covering the walls like the border's wall. The idea of the wall being like the Berlin wall never sunk in until I heard Morones compare the two today. I wanted to listen to Andrea's other video about the land grab in Utah but I hadn't eaten all day and had to jet home.

I can't wait for tomorrow.

Friday, June 25, 2010

New beginnings

Hi all!
Instead of writing my life story in 420 characters or less in my facebook status every few hours. I started a blog. This is for all my friends and family not in LA, that I long to see. Also, those friends in LA that live on the East Side and I never get to see. :)

As I start my fellowship at the Ben Maltz Gallery, I'm looking for a place to discuss my ideas about life and art. AND a place to chronicle my adventures here in California! That though public isn't blasted to everyone in the world on facebook. I want a place with a bit more depth here in cyberland.

SO the most pressing thing to discuss right THE BEACH! cause i have been there a few times this an idea to photograph all the different things people lug to the I saw a man who was carrying an oversized bag on his bag (probably a tent of some sort) for a day at the beach...while his lady friend had nothing in her hands...AND the young woman with the hot pink/magenta pillows that were studded with rhinestone CROWNS on them! I guess this intrigues me what people lug to a place that is for leisure. What do I carry? I carry 1-3 books, water, and a snack in my green african print bag--sometimes i wear a swimsuit--sometimes i just go for the sound of the waves and to people watch. I love Venice!

The other day another great thing about the beach is the ice cream vendors! these guys come crashing through the sand (uff!) to deliver their ice cream from a hand cart to me! and Sally! for $2 a pop! now THAT is a deal! i had a yummy push pop. which no longer has fred flintstone on it but is a bit more sherbet and has tweety on it.

Well here it is, if you want inside my head a bit. Or want to keep up with my adventures. Here is the place to go. My mother will be reading this so keep your comments for the most part clean! :)